About Me

Hi, I am Kenidra Woods I am 15 years old and I self-harmed to take away my pain, only to realize that I was causing more pain to myself as well as my family and loved ones. I was at a point where I was so depressed I didn't care if I lived or died. All those things occurred because of circumstances that I couldn't control in my past. Only now am I really beginning to understand this. When I was just a kid, my step-dad and a family friend sexually abused me. I thought it was right, I thought every little kid went through that. I finally realized it was wrong when my oldest sister was abused as well, and she SPOKE OUT. I began to get all these mixed feelings about what was happening. I was the kind of person who wanted to keep my feelings inside so I never expressed how I felt, I didn't believe in feelings. 

As I began to mature and fully understand, I had such resentment towards my step dad (who's now deceased) because he was suppose to love me not hurt me or violate me. I held all my feelings in growing up then, as I got to my teenage years, it started to affect me so badly. I use to abuse myself; I’d punch myself and bust my lip, cut myself, whip myself with belts, bang my head etc… So many things! I just didn't love or even like myself AT ALL! I felt worthless, afraid, ashamed and alone. 

In November of 2015, it really got bad. I was hospitalized several times that month and then again in December. Being hospitalized, of course, wasn't fun but I had lots of encouragement even when I didn't care or want to hear it. I was so stubborn and just had that, “I don't care attitude.” It slowly began to change when I was almost forced to get my feelings out and express myself because I had held back for so long. 

So anyone that's self-harming right now or has been through it, please know that YOU'RE NOT ALONE!!! I promise things can get better and the pieces will slowly come back together, please don't beat yourselves up over anything you couldn't control. Yes, these scars will be here for sometime, but I'm living, and right now I'm learning to embrace them. Everyday I look at them, healing and I think of this situation as a battle. Yeah there were a few cuts and bruises, but I MADE IT THROUGH and I’m still going forward. 

If I can do it YOU CAN DO IT, too!